My christmas x)

HOLY SHIET, livest christmas evaawrr ! :) Me nd my lover ( david , just a fam friend ) were like chillin , nd stuff :) Christmas eve, i was at my cousins house , party :) nd i was chillin w/ my cousin nd my lover in my cousins room. We were on the computer doing shiet , then we called downstairs for games nd dancing xP i didn't join the games coz i was sleepy, but then i woke up a bit nd started dancing w/ my fammo nd my lover :) i showed erryone some shieetty line dance i learned from another party, there was this supawrrr hot dude dancing it and showed erryone nd i caught on :) i know it isn't christmas anymore xP it's just coz i've been busy nd shieeet, so i didn't get the chance to type out what happened on christmas :) kay so , we had a sick count down till christmas ... three...two...one ! MERRY CHRISTMAS : D it was so live, my lover like grabbed me and threw me on the couch alone w/ him :P lmao . We were hugging for so long :P it was weird. lmao . then we danced more , greeted eachother merry christmas :) iGOTMONEYYO:) nd... then i had to go home -.-" so i said bye to erryone and hugged my lover again :P for like...5 mins straight xP then i dunno why :P but he gave me his cell number..mmm chop chop chop :P lmao . so yeah.. i went home, went to bed at three watching movies with the famo . Then the next day MORE famo came over -.-" more partying.. then i got tired..nd went to bed again :) TEHEE x) . yup that was my christmas , pretty live :)KK . ho ho homo , merry christmas erryone :) late , greeting . but better now than never :)
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Christmas day.

Live day. on Christmas eve, i was at my cousins' place. We partied nd played games till it was 3 seconds before 12;00 , christmas. Me and my lover, David (familyfriend,NOTboyfriend)were ready , counting down...three....two...one...MERRY CHRISTMAS! he gave my a HUGE hug, i'll never forget it. We fell over onto the couch, i was trying to get up but he held on. It was funny :) pretty much an awesome way to start christmas. After the huge hug, we were dancing nd stuff. Then me and my lover went upstairs in my cousin's room on her computer. We talked about our life, and what we've missed about eachother. :) around 12;30 or 1;00 am on christmas morn, we went home. I said bye to erryone, hugged them all goodbye. Then David , iunno why but he gave me his number so we could chill at stc x) lmao. When i got home, i watched a movie with my rents, two lil bros and cousins who slept over. I went to bed around 3 , but stayed awake in bed till 6 thinking, then around 6 somethin i finally fell asleep. Then had to wake up at 9 to go to church. After church we arrived at home nd more relatives came over. Partied again x) then i had to go outside and chase after my aunts fucken dog coz it ran away -.-" stupid shit. lmao . Then..now here i am , bored as hell.. kinda sad. But s'all good. i'll end it here.
^ thats what happened this years christmas x)♥

Enough.

I am so tired of running after you,
when all i wish to do is talk.
Why can't you let me explain how i feel?
stop pushing me aside.
So your telling me, all those things you've said were lies?
you didn't mean a single word you said to me?
well... to me, they meant a lot.
it's a good thing i didn't add a picture of me and you and that dogtag i bought you.
if i knew what was coming, i would never have bought it.
but my feelings for you were just so strong.
it took over me.
i miss everything about you .
but now, i'm done with love .
just for now, i'll be checking but..iunno if i'll ever love the same way again.
you've left me scarred, these marks won't leave ; 111308 *
i still remember, coz maybe unlike you .. i actually cared.
i'm not sure, if i'm right about all that, you didn't care.
but thats what it seemed like to me when it was game over.
THE END.
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Don't Look Back.

i know, we had awesome times.
but you should know,
nothing that great could have lasted forever.
the only way it won't hurt us as much,
is if we don't like back.
forget about the past,
coz it's just gunna pull us back.
to the bad times we've had.
Forgive and forget,
start a new.
i'm willing to take that chance.
you and i,
have good and bad memories.
lets erase the bad ones,
and keep the good ones safe.
fresh start ?
babe, just run and don't look back.
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choices.

i don't want to leave, but thats not my choice to make.
if i had a choice, you know for a fact i would stay.
i would never want to leave you guys behind.
but then again, not my choice.
I'm doing errything i can , to stay.
but i dunno how long i can keep this up..
if i end up leaving, best not forget bout me..
i know i won't, never.♥
i'll miss you, no durrr!
love you guys, forever and always..
locked and sealed.♥

Hard times.

Ever have the feeling,
when you think it's the end of the world?
I bet everyones had that day.
It may not be for the same reasons,
but we've all thought about it before.
I'll never forget that i have so many people loving me,
but sometimes that thoughts just disapears for a moment.
It fades slowly,
as a clear thought of pain just pops up.
Can't believe i let you do that to me..
after all you've said.
Lies, lies ,lies and i was stupid enough to believe them...
I don't regret being with you, but i regret believing you. ^
That may sound harsh,
but it comes from the heart.
Don't take it the wrong way, please.
I'm not trying to be mean or rude, in anyway.
I would never want to hurt you,
but believe that.
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